To My Savior

I'm not good at writing letters because I never know what to say

I'm not good at telling people how I feel either

But this post

This is for you

Before I say my thanks, I want to apologize

I know I've made mistakes

And I probably hurt you somehow without knowing it

I'm so sorry

If I was missing when you needed me

If I was busy when you were looking for me

If I was caught up with something that I couldn't come to my best friend's aid immediately

I'm so sorry

My life before meeting you sucked

It really did

You changed everything

Thank you for introducing yourself to me

Thank you for hanging out with me

Thank you for being my friend

Thank you for defending me when I couldn't

Thank you for spending your time with me

Thank you for agreeing to spend the future with me

Thank you for all those fun times we had

Thank you for your concern

Thank you for listening when I vented out my problems to you

Thank you for understanding who I am

Thank you for accepting me for who I am and not what people made me

Thank you for fangirling with me

Thank you for making plans with me

Thank you for singing with me when we had nothing else to do

Thank you for letting me sleep over at your place

Thank you for being in my life

If you weren't here, I wouldn't know what to do

I'd probably be a wreck

You saved me so many times

You didn't even know it

I was so close to jumping off the edge

I was so close to insanity

You saved me

You're such an amazing person, you're one of the best

You deserve nothing but the best

I'm the luckiest person in the world to have known you

I promise I'll do my best so we can get that dream apartment of ours

I promise I'll never change

I promise I'll keep you in my life

I promise to always be here to listen to you and help you when you have problems

I promise

When you need me

I'll save you

Like how you saved me

I love you so much

I never want to lose you

Stay beautiful

Stay amazing

Stay weird

Stay you

Love, your best friend

Crippled Wings

A Letter to My Friends

To my dearest friends, hi.

I'm not quite sure whether you'll all be able to read this

Or if you'll still remember me when you do

But there are a couple of things I could never tell you myself

I may not remember everything

But I remember the times that count

Those beautiful memories of us laughing at the silliest things

And crying at the saddest things

You all

As cliche as this sounds

Helped me so much

You let me fly

These wings of mine were crippled once

They could handle the weight I carried

The weight that fell upon my shoulders like buildings

I wished that I could touch the sky

And run my hands through the clouds

I wished I could swoop down and see my reflection in bodies of water

I wished I could take you up there with my and enjoy the view

I couldn't

But you fixed me

You healed me

You let me fly

These once crippled wings of mine could now take me so high

And I would love to bring you up here with me

I can breathe now

Breathe so easily

I don't know what I've done to deserve your kindness

I don't know what I've done to deserve your time

I don't know what I've done to deserve you

But thank you so much

You have no idea how happy you've made me

How much you've changed my life

You all mean the world to me

Thank you

I love you

With love,
me.

Playing Around

STOP PLAYING AROUND WITH A PERSON'S FEELINGS

So many people have suffered the pain of a heartbreak.

I may not be one of those people, but I feel for them.

I've seen so many friends get wrecked and torn by a person who simply 

played them

or simply made them a

second choice

or simply

settled for them.

Why would you even do that?

Do you have any idea how much that hurts?

I speak from experience.

A friend of mine is like this.

His first love wouldn't give him the time of day so he went on to another.

He used his story to make people sympathize with him.

When his next choice wouldn't return his feelings, he went on to her friend.

And now she's torn.

She fell.

He made her fall.

But then he moved on to another.

It seems like a never ending chain.

He keeps looking around for cute girls

Not even minding if he's hurting other people

We talked to him about it

But I guess habits die hard

So please, if you're still reading this

Remember

Don't play around with a person's feelings

Don't break another person

Don't make someone fall for someone who won't fall with them

I Believe in Stars

Did you ever think that maybe you're not good enough to be anything?

That you're nothing but a piece of work, not a work in progress?

That you're worthless?

I do. I feel that way every single day of my life.

My parents make me feel that way.

My so-called friends make me feel that way.

Society makes me feel that way.

But hey, 16 years of that BS and I'm still alive and kicking!

Something got me through.

It wasn't God.

It wasn't my real friends.

It wasn't love.

It was the stars.

I believe in stars. I believe in their non-existent power to make a person believe.

It sounds pretty sad for someone to believe in stars, I know. I'm a sad person.

There's a certain sentence that I wrote on a little sticky note posted on my mirror. 

It says:

Light up the night sky.

I've faced a lot of shizz in my life from having to deal with family problems to wondering why the sky is blue or how glue doesn't stick to the container it's it.

Life sucks.

We all know that. It's been established a billion years ago when dinosaurs went extinct. They just wanted to live happily but couldn't. And that sucks.

But yeah, what I'm saying is that we've all been in dark places, we've all fell into holes in the ground. Some people never get out. I'm still stuck in a little pit. I've made myself at home here.

But everyone is a star in the bright sky. Without those stars, what would form those beautiful constellations?

When you look up at the night sky, hopelessly searching for an answer, what do you see?

You see the moon, the clouds, and those beautiful stars.

Well guess what?

 I believe in darkness. I believe in sadness. I believe in endings and despair and agony.

And I believe in stars.

I believe that we're all stars and we're supposed to shine as bright as we can. We're all part of the sky, it's out job to light it up.

I'm a star.

You're a star.

My friends are stars.

My loved ones are stars.

Everyone is a star.

I believe in stars.

Do you?

Light up the night sky.

Introduce Myself?

/ˌintrəˈdəkSH(ə)n/
a formal presentation of one person to another, in which each is told the other's name.

A formal presentation?
This is an informal blog so...
duck it

I don't see the necessity to make this introduction long, after all, who tells their life story to someone the first time they meet? But I'll give you the gift of things, sure.

My name is Moira. Hi, nice to meet you.

I'm currently a college student. I'm in my first year, studying Computer Science, majoring in Web Development.

I'm a level 16 female human.

I love to write, read, listen to music, hang out with my friends, play badminton, watch some shows, and sing.

I don't dance. I can't dance.

I'm an open-minded person. I find close-mindedness boring.

I'm a very curious human being. I question a lot of things. I search for a lot of things.

I'm not rich. I'm barely getting by.

I'm not happy all the time. I'm not sad all the time.

I'm weird, strange, odd, and unusual.

I am me.